I want to thank Jason, and everyone at the Monastery again for welcoming me with such openness. I’m still amazed that I was granted this chance to see shining examples of the teachings of A Course in Miracles, and for the very first time in a lengthy while, I do not feel alone.
Part of me wanted to remain longer, but beneath that desire was thinking that I will be this for the wrong reason; as a way to avoid my problems. The stronger feeling was, and is, that my travels will continue.
Before I left, Jason asked if I had had any insights acim teacher. What I’m about to talk about wasn’t yet clear during those times; only on the drive away achieved it coalesce.
That morning, several lines from a Vance Joy song kept running through my head, “I never needs to have told you, never needs to have enable you to see inside. Don’t are interested troubling your brain, won’t you let it be?” This confused me as I possibly could not consider anything that I had said that I felt regret for.
Eventually, the phrase, “don’t are interested troubling your mind” stood out. This reminded me that the absolute most prominent fear I had in arriving at the Monastery was that I would somehow interfere with its residents’reassurance, by just my presence alone. This belief that I possibly could negatively affect other people’s state of mind has been with me for many years, and has colored lots of my past experiences and relationships.
This fear left my awareness right after I arrived. On the drive away it rose again, but I remembered David saying in one of is own videos that minds cannot attack. I cried and laughed, and now feel as if the belief is being (has been?) released.
You will find other items that happened that felt important, but I can’t consider them right now.